ual Abuse Question....?

I was molested at a young age, And then again by my kids father. It happend in the middle of the night while I was asleep.(I would wake up and he would hold me down.) I would try to fight him back, but he was stronger, He made a habit of it and I never feel safe. Now my body reacts weird , while asleep I hump, and others around me call me a I am not ually active.I also have not been with many men. I feel I am proving them wrong by not seeing anyone but thats not working I still feel bad. Iwant to see if ths is just me?Has anyone had ual problems from ? And not just shutting down I did that ..I was with this guy and my feeings came back...how can I stop this?